You’ll figure this out one day, if you’re lucky. It’s called perspective. So many things we take for granted and we never question them because they’re just there. Always there seemingly when we need them.
You never notice your mobile device until it’s gone and needs to be replaced. You drop it in the toilet and fail to dry it by putting it in a bag of rice to soak the moisture. Nope, now you’ve got to drop a few hundo just to get new one and in the meantime you miss everything that happens in between that time. Gratitude for what you have while you have it.
Beyond physical objects and materialism, though you can grateful for that stuff too. Take human interaction. I’ve been stuck at home for the most part over the last two months with this fractured fibula. It’s starting to heal but I’ve been limited in where I can go and what I can do. Going to the store to pick up groceries is damn near impossible. If it weren’t for my mom, I’d be up the creek. Don’t take anything or anyone for granted. Don’t take your friends for granted, especially when you don’t get to see them. Social media makes you think you’re in contact with them but that’s limited. You lose something when you can’t talk to them, especially face to face. Words on a screen don’t have the context of hearing each other. Most people prefer texting to talking on the phone, which makes sense if you don’t know each other but if what if you’re friends. What happened to friendship? Aren’t you grateful for friendship?
Don’t take anything for granted. Elevators. The bus. Your friends. Parking validations. Chocolate milk. Your car. Your phone. Your laptop. Your family. Youtube. Vitamins. Disinfectant wipes. Cereal. Each and every individual’s capacity for good and/or evil. Each and every individual’s ability to completely fuck it up for themselves. Karma. Air travel. Guardrails. Depression. Yourself. Music. Especially music. There’s a new guy on Twitter named SuperHumman who does stunts like throwing his shirtless body onto piles of thumbtacks and barbed wire and he already has 24,000 followers. Definitely do not take him for granted. He’s a juggalo.
Don’t take anything for granted. And be grateful when you can. Be grateful for yourself. Don’t be so hard on yourself. It’s a tough world and you don’t have to join it in flogging yourself. Pick your battles and fight them. Love with the heart of a warrior. Cry as much as you need to. Cry from joy and happiness and don’t be ashamed. Share the things you enjoy instead of blocking them from others like you’re some sort of VIP. Remember to be a person. Remember to breathe and breathe and breathe and look up at the sky and be amazed and confused at it all.